Loving an Angel

nike's back!

2009-12-21T19:38:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone! Nike's back, been away on a retreat in the countryside in Japan. Just Angel and I and the beautiful endless scenary and no computers! Met up with his granny and stayed with her for some time too, enjoyed my time tremendously and feeling so much closer to Angel than ever before.

The whole experience taught me so many things, and I saw a simple life which I come to love :) The little cottage we stayed at in the suburbs, and relying entirely on each other. A humble life and getting in touch with nature, enjoying each other's company, and stargazing in the clear night sky. These memories I will always cherish, as with my loved ones. Back for christmas with my family, and into work again after the holidays.

Sorry if my disappearance caused any worries, hoped I am missed :) Now that I am back, just say what you wanna tell me got lots of catch up on. Hugs.

hot halloween

2009-11-17T01:19:00.000-08:00

I know Halloween is long over and sorry for the lack of updates. But I had one of the best Halloween party this year! Angel and I dressed up for a friend's party, and we looked like quite a couple :) Haha, thinking about it makes me smile to myself.

Angel wore a hakama which is a japanese traditional costume, looks really manly showing off his muscular chest. I cross-dressed as a geisha, even stopped tanning just for it. Angel got a kimono for me, said that he must help me put it on. Naughty!! I enjoyed it though :)

Seems that our dress-up really worked because the cabbie who got us there complimented that we look like a great couple. He thought I was a girl too! Had a great night and there were many interesting costumes at the party, the best part was how everyone accepted Angel and I as a couple. It felt really great so be so at ease.

Of course the night ended with some cuddling in Angel's arms, which I offered to help remove his hakama :)

passion

2009-11-10T00:44:00.000-08:00

Facets Chapter 21

The boy looked at him:
innocent gazes,
harmless brushes,
passionate intentions.

He felt the push in his pants,
the choke in his throat,
the uneasiness in his gut.

His world only has him now,
a friend.
He didnt want to lose it all..
not for this.

--

He sat with him during recess,
the lone bench.
Where they would usually sit,
where they could see the world go by.

The boy wanted to touch his hand,
he bit his lips.
His stomach flipped,
gut twisted.

"Lucas, are you fine?
You have been acting weird lately.."
That gentle voice broke him out.

"Its.. nothing."

"You look like you have something
bothering you.
Mind sharing?"

"Well, its..
what the rest say about me,
do you believe it?"

"That you are that sort of person,
I guess it doesnt matter does it?"

The boy let his breathe go
with a sigh of relief.

--

As they walked back to class,
the boy gave occasional glaces to Alex.
Alex,
a name so sweet.

The boy swallowed his saliva,
fantasies ran in his mind.
Any sense of control
is lost.

"Alex.."
He turned.

The boy stepped closer,
and their lips touched.

apology accepted.

2009-10-29T01:04:00.000-07:00

I am so glad its finally settled :) Consulted Angel's buddy and a few friends at work about my situation, the best suggestion I got was to prepare dinner for Angel which I did! Must say it is much harder than I thought it would be, nervousness and stress also got to me. I really wanted to impress Angel..

Phoned Angel to come home, spent an afternoon whipping a storm in the kitchen (though I spent most time on cleaning). Waited nervously for Angel to step into the house, he was pleasantly surprised. Tucked in, Angel complimented the cooking but I am not sure if he was entirely honest.. then he asked me whats the occasion for this meal.

I told him I am sorry for my behavior the other day. He just smiled and gave me a hug, "Apology accepted, Nike." :)

terrible.

2009-10-25T03:40:00.000-07:00

I think I made Angel really upset.. was really tired when I came home and did not have dinner. Angel prepared a feast just for me :( Feel so terrible even thought he said its okay, I can see the sadness in his eyes. Really wish that I had just eaten everything he took the effort to make, now I think its too late.

What can I do to make up for this? How do I tell him I am sorry?? :(

what angel stands for..

2009-10-16T01:10:00.000-07:00

After being with Angel for two years, it has been happy, tough, heartbreaking and loving times we have had. And the 5 magical alphabets stands for:

A. Attractive, heehee kind of redundant but I just have to say this!

N. Never late, probably the most punctual person I ever met.. always ready to go, got lots of time for this trait to rub off on me :)

G. Giver. Angel's favourite quote, "It is when you give yourself that you truly give."

E. Edible. Naughty adjective, up to you to decipher what it means.

L. Loving! Big heart from a big brother <3

Thats it for this post, got to give Angel my attention now =3

trunk fetish

2009-10-10T18:51:00.000-07:00

Everyone has a bad habit they cannot get over right? Biting nails, leaving the socks around the place.. well got a confession to make about mine. At home, Angel is the chef and I am the laundry boy; and Angel caught me sniffing his undies :0

I dont do it all the time, just sometimes when I am feeling bored or when it smells really good. Angel's initial reaction was amusement, and then he went to sniff it too and then mine :c Made me feel soo guilty, I just cannot help it! Scents turn me on too unfortunately, which makes me a very naughty boy..

exploring the swim team

2009-09-24T23:41:00.000-07:00

Learnt more about Angel, there's much more to him than I thought I know. Or at least I thought I know, the Angel I know is so strong I always took it for granted. From the physical transformation he took, I am glad he had the courage to face his issues. His strength which I heavily relied on, the shoulder I lean on, it was built by his bravery and determination.

And looking at the pictures of the swim team he keeps, his proud voice as he shows me the photo album. I instantly recognise him, the pair of blue eyes, they look exactly the same. Angel sure beefed up quite a lot since then 7 years ago, but the characteristics of that boy still lived in him, beautiful smile I fell in love with :)

Angel said that the swim team changed his life. It gave him friends and companionship, it made him stronger and more confident. He even said that bullying stopped, then hugged me.

"You know Nike? You are the strength I need to live everyday. Your strength made me brave enough to face life."

"But.. I don't understand"

Angel kissed my cheek, "You are a braver boy than you think you are. And I am very proud of you."
And I felt the love of the hottest boy in the swim team :)

angel's story.

2009-09-23T19:22:00.000-07:00

Angel was a really skinny boy in his early teens, he told me this short story about his workout motivation. It was his first crush, when he was 16. Love is capable of doing wonders, and he really fell for that cute boy a few years younger than him. The boy seemed gay and well could be, Angel was curious about him.

His suspicions were confirmed when he saw him kissing another boy in the washroom. The boy's partner was a hunky swimmer from his school and that was what got Angel into swimming and working out. Angel's voice was almost teary by that time, but I was already crying. Angel hugged me, and went on saying about how he got accepted into the swim team.

That was the turning point of his life, even though there were many occasions when he liked his fellow teammates, Angel said he never got the courage to "do anything". I asked what made me different from the other guys in his life, he just smiled and said: "It would be my greatest regret if I stood and see you leave."

I took a moment to absorb what he said. He just played with my hair and smelt it, in front of me was his beautiful chest. I pressed my cheek against its strength, the story behind it was the reason for the warmth I felt. Only made another tear trickle down by face.

ouch. its love.

2009-09-17T03:52:00.000-07:00

Got stabbed by the sewing machine, it hurt quite a lot. Apologetic but I cried :( Angel was all panicky and almost tripped while getting the first aid kit. After it was all wrapped up, Angel gave it a gentle kiss. It is the first time someone did that for me, it happens all the time in movies but it really makes it less painful :)

Really appreciate that Angel is here with me, and to take care of me. He offered to help me out now cos of the injury, like taking of clothes and all >< Cheeky boy..

steam.

2009-09-09T21:37:00.000-07:00

Gym lessons with Angel. Quite a workout as usual, Angel took off his shirt halfway :) He smells soo good, wish he doesnt need to bath ever (heehee). Bubbly fun in the showers, and shopping for white undies.

dazy

2009-09-04T07:31:00.000-07:00

Workout day. It feels better since I know what to expect this time :) It was pretty intensive but Angel was soft on me, haha! I can feel all my muscles popping out already (heehee), just a slight exaggeration. We went to a really great desert place later, they have the best ice cream ever :)

But the sweetest thing was that Angel got me flowers (quite girly actually). He never got me flowers, and it was kinda awkward cos everyone was looking at us :( Was rather uncomfortable with all the attention, especially when I had to hold the flowers. Still feeling quite dazy from everything that happened.

white stuff ><

2009-08-30T01:34:00.000-07:00

Love is bittersweet.
Love is soft (or hard).
Love is lick-able.
Love is yummy.

Went for a workout with Angel today. I am so out-of-shape, feeling sore all over now.. but it was pretty fun :) Tried out all the workout machines and Angel helped me quite a bit. It was nice when Angel leaned over to help me with the weights, his face only an inch away. And I could see his eyes so clearly, smell his sweat.

Its so sweet that he's willing to train me. Gonna try my best and make him proud :)

After the training, had nice steam bath. Played with Angel in the sauna, got me hard seeing him wet and sweaty. His chest looked so inviting, feels irresistible. His sweat somehow turns me on overdrive. Just can't take it!! And let my hands do the talking, haha :) Till white stuff start squirting out.. xx

glasses

2009-08-26T02:57:00.000-07:00

Angel and I got new glasses. SMOOCHIES and TANNING!
Back home now, Angel served his punishment (read the previous post)
It was pretty kinky, haha.
But he's the sweetest ever :)

breathe.touch.smell

2009-08-16T04:04:00.000-07:00

In Japan now, well and happy :)
Gonna share about the "onsen incident" today.

Angel didnt manage to get a public onsen, I didnt want to go at first (I get hard easily :( ) but Angel really wanted to. The only compromise we can get to is to go in the middle of the night. So we sneaked out in our robes and naked inside, I was already getting a little hard down there.

Luckily there was no one there and we quickly soaked in the water. It felt really nice and quiet, Angel and I all alone. I cozed up near Angel, he placed his arm over my shoulder and a small folded towel over my head. Kissed my cheek gently, I was in heaven :)

After a nice soak, it was time we got back. And we found our robes missing!! I got really hard on the thought of it, and no one else was there.. Angel laughed, we have to walk quite a bit to get back to our room. I asked if we could walk through the garden, so no one could see us; we got going (quick!)

It was really dark, which I was glad for; but cold. My thing was standing and it hurt quite a lot. Seeing Angel naked only made it worse, and he held me by my cock. Ouch. As we walked, he was playing with it; I was panting from my increased heartrate. I was getting closed and begged Angel to stop, but he only stroked harder. Before I knew it, I came and it was a real sticky mess.

I was kinda mad and demanded that Angel do something for me too, he said anything. And I will leave that for my next post.. :)

i wanna stay here like this..

2009-07-30T00:50:00.000-07:00

A nightly ritual.

kiss me goodnight.

2009-07-28T22:49:00.000-07:00

You sit by me,
I sat next to you.

Your hand round my waist,
my hand on your lap.

You turned to face me,
I tilt my head.

You moved close,
my eyes closed.

Your lips on mine,
my tongue round yours.

You slept by me,
I sleep next to you.

bunny boy.

2009-07-26T01:13:00.000-07:00

Angel looks soo hot as a bunny boy :)
Going out for a short vacation,
will be back with more stories.

As for now, shall write the time
we played in the public washroom yesterday.
Feeling kinky now,
Angel's playing with my thing.

Later :)

shy boy

2009-07-24T15:06:00.000-07:00

Angel's OKAY :)
Been going out and having quite some fun,
preparing for Alice's wedding.

And I went for tanning (again),
Angel kinda likes it I think.
Keep looking at the tan lines on my butt,
making me red.

I am a shy boy.

getting well.

2009-07-12T03:05:00.000-07:00

Angel's getting better :)
He's smiling more and definitely better
than he was a few days ago.

He lost some weight,
undies no longer fit like they do :(

But well, he's gonna be back in shape real soon,
luvvies!!

warmth

2009-07-08T01:05:00.000-07:00

Angel is sick ):
His skin no longer warm like it was,
his eyes look tired.

The boy prays by his bed,
for his brother to get well.

Wrapped in his arms,
he coz-ed up and closed his eyes.
Skin to skin,
lip to lip.

The boy is worried sick,
big brother needs him.

cuddles.

2009-06-22T22:54:00.000-07:00

kinky

2009-06-11T22:59:00.000-07:00

Updates!
Going for Alice's wedding which is coming soon, really excited.
Gonna make Angel a nice blazer
took measurements today and it became a really kinky time :)

Got me really hard
and Angel was so naughy..

Angel asked if I needed to measure his cock,
said no though I blushed a lot!
Angel pushed my face against his crotch,
I rubbed my cheeks to his pubes.

"I am well familiar with its size no?"
Took it in my mouth.
Angel went to his knees,
"Come, let me return the favour."

He went to suck me,
I cried out a little and squeaked.

His hands ran along my thighs,
I got so hard it hurt.
A big mess got into Angel's mouth,
he gagged then laughed it off.

Angel stood and kissed me,
passing my cum from his mouth to mine.
It was kinda yucky
but I swallowed anyway :)

Angel wrapped his muscles around me,
pushed himself into my body.
He pumped and the rest is history..

savior.

2009-06-10T01:17:00.000-07:00

Facets Chapter 20

The boy looked back,
someone knocked the door of his stall.

"This is not a good time.."
He thought,
squeezing his wrists.

It was pouring red.

"Are you okay?"
The voice is sweet and gentle.

The boy didnt want to respond,
bit his lips.
Tears falling,
its so painful.

The toilet bowl is already stained red,
blood sat between the tiles.
He wanted to flush it down,
the water kept coming out.

Damn!
The blood overpoured,
it went out from the sides.

"Oh my gosh!!
Please stop it, dont hurt yourself!!"
The voice came back,
banging on the door heavily now.

The boy felt faint.
His head felt slow and empty,
he couldnt think.
He unlocked the latch.

The boy fell backwards.

In time to be caught in another's hands..

--

The boy felt sick,
his world spun on a stationary spot.
He wanted to puke,
badly.

He looked around,
the room is dark.
A lone lamp stood bright,
illuminating a presence,

of a savior.

breathe on me

2009-06-09T13:03:00.000-07:00

Facets Chapter 19

Roger felt cold
really cold.
He crunched in the sheets,
but the winter is within him.

The door opened.

"Dave.."
A mere whisper.

He rushed over,
touched his face and hands.

"Why are you so cold?"
He looked panicky,
he went for the kitchen.

"Here, have some of these."

It was a small cup.
Roger just drank it.

It felt like a miracle water,
blood rushed up his face.
His body was warm,
in fact burning hot.

Roger broke into a sweat,
he started panting.
He's burning..

Unconsciously,
he took of his shirt.
He's wet all over.

--

Dave bit his lips,
the sight is getting tempting.
He felt the restrain in his pants,
he's hard.

As Roger reached for his pants,
Dave tried to stop it.

But he stripped off anyway,
he's hard too.
But he's drunk..

--

Roger sat there in his undies,
he couldnt think properly.
He felt high but more hot,
he felt something more too.

He looked at Dave,
that muscle wall.
He went to hug him,
hands under his shirt.

He wants to touch him,
badly.

--

Dave closed his eyes,
his desires broke free from their restrains.
He hugged the boy,
they crashed onto the bed.

Roger was wet and all worked up,
he kissed him first
then ran his hands.

Dave threw his clothes aside,
he wanted their skin to touch.
He rubbed his skin against his,
the human touch.

--

Roger woke up.

want more?

2009-06-01T02:54:00.000-07:00

Hiyyas!
Got a surge of ideas for Facets,
noticed the new chapters uploaded?

Hope you like it
and comment!

If you want more,
drop in your suggestions and feedbacks.
More writing if there's positive response to it,
heehee :)

Loves,

nike

the first day

2009-06-01T01:14:00.000-07:00

Facets Chapter 18

The boy looked around,
the same, its exactly the same
as it was when he left.
Certain things never change.

There were looks,
and then there were stares.

The boy tried to ignore,
overlook them and walk.
He'd have to go through this,
possibly all over again..

Old enemies.
They just never die..
The look on their face,
the look on his face.

--

"Hey gay boy!"
The shout ringed everywhere,
the boy cringed.
Its over.

One of them came over,
the rest circled around him.
He placed his hand on the boy's butt,
the boy closed his eyes.

He could feel it,
that betrayal, that wrongfulness.
He could see it in his eyes,
the pleasure..

or is it guilt?
Misplaced trust.

"Hold his down."
Three pairs of arms landed,
the boy kicked helplessly.

He felt his trousers unbuttoned,
its like before just under daylight.
His privates invaded,
his body exposed.

They threw his clothes in all directions,
swaggered their way.

The boy covered himself,
he flushed red all over.
Naked for all to see..

But it wasnt his body or privates
that he is afraid.
But the beaten scars and marks on his body,
they would all know.

There is laughter
but worse are the murmurs and fingers.

The boy put himself together,
his clothes are all dirty even wet.
So were his eyes..

--

He poured.
Locked himself in four walls and poured.

"Why?!"

"Why do I have to come back here?
Doesnt she understand?
Cant she understand?
This is the cause for all that happened.."

He sat on the toilet seat,
shirtless with his washed shirt in hand.
Hands in his face,
wept uncontrollably.

He punched the wall of the stall,
then collapsed.
The boy wanted to die,
truly wanted to die.

He cowered to the corner
like a defenseless rodent.

"It isnt worth it,
this life isnt worth it."
His hands shook as he retrieved the knife
balanced it over blue river.

He took a breath
and pressed gently first.
His mouth bit onto the wet shirt,
his eyes forcefully shut.

His tears broke out even more so,
he wanted it to end faster.

Another breath.
One forceful push.
It broke.

The river flowed,
or rather poured.
The boy's trance was broken.

He felt something more:
pain.
It felt so real, so alive.

He woke up.

connection

2009-05-29T18:44:00.000-07:00

Facets Chapter 17

"Dont you remember me?"

Roger cracked his head,
as far as he remembers
he had no memory since what happened.

"Will you stay with me?
I have plenty of room..
I will fund your schooling,
I will take care of you!"

Roger felt uneasy,
Dave really likes him?

"I guess so,
I dont have anywhere else to go either.."
It was the truth.

Dave looked sympathetic,
he looked at him in the eyes.
He felt a tinge of guilt,
but he wanted Roger so badly.

He gave Roger a hug,
a big bear hug.

Roger felt uncomfortable at first,
then overcame to his cousin's love.
He felt safe,
someone forsaken but found.

Warmth overcame him
it poured from every part of his body.
Dave's hands ran under his oversized shirt,
caressing his ribbed body.

His clothes came off,
his body completely under Dave's.
Their breathing loud, heart racing.

They kissed.
"I found you. I finally found you.."

--

Two months ago..

"Diary,

I am still searching for my dearest.
His father hasnt been much useful.
They were already gone when I was there.

How I long to see him again,
I never got the chance.. I should have done something.
To stop this monster of a father..
if I fail, how can I ever forgive myself?

As long as I can, I will look for you
now I pray for God to have mercy on you Roger.
I have to find you..

Dave."

--

He looked at the sleeping boy,
it was all worth it.

But he wondered,
will Roger really accept him?
Or is it that experience that turned him,
gay?

i woke up

2009-05-29T13:05:00.000-07:00

Facets Chapter 16

Warmth.

--

Roger jolted awake,
his blood ran cold.

It felt like haven,
he lay in a huge bed
with white linens like clouds.

He was tucked nicely in the middle,
under a thick warm blanket, also white.

He lifted the sheets,
good God.
He's naked.

--

Roger tried to hide his modesty
as he searched for his clothes.
They were no wear to be found.

The man came in,
Roger's instincts went on high.
He immediately stood up to face this stranger.

"Please, dont mind me.
I didnt do anything to you, trust me."

Roger did not move,
his experiences told him too much
about people like him.

"Your clothes.. are in the washer.
You can use mine"

But the man seemed different,
his face looks sincere and gesture almost true.
Roger let his guard down.

"My name is Dave,
I am a police."

A police, one of those who saved him
can he be trusted?
Roger spoke:

"I'd like something to wear please.."

"Of course."
The man went to the dresser
and took about a shirt,
undies and a pair of shorts.

Roger put the on right away,
though they were a bad fit.

His man, Dave is a buff guy.
He left Roger to change,
not like he hasnt seen enough..

--

Dave asked him to have a meal,
which Roger did not reject.
His stomach hurt so much,
he couldnt be bothered.

They started talking,
Roger is beginning to trust this man.

His smile, everything about him
seems real and true.
But why did he choose to help him?
Roger asked.

"You see, I have something for you."
Dave finally admitted.

crime

2009-05-29T12:53:00.000-07:00

Facets Chapter 15

Roger looked around him,
his stomach hurt to the feel of food.
Its acidic burn,
the sickly faint spells.

A new torture awaits him.
He tugged his stomach as he continued walking,
his destination: unknown.

He shall walk,
if he finds food he will eat;
and water he will drink.

His vision is standing blur,
his feet moved on.
A blind flash, a clumsy trip
total blackout.

--

A sound of metal clicking,
a turn of a key.

A hand patted his cheeks,
and again harder.

Roger forced his eyes open,
a blurred figure stood head of him.
Blue, maybe black,
maybe a shadow.

Roger's eye fluttered,
his mind drifting between consciousness.
The figure, a man
opened his mouth.

Roger did not resist.
Water.

He drank it feverishly
then something else touched his lips.
Roger's eyes broke open,
the man is kissing him!

His hand went under his shirt,
touching him under the pits
into his pants and everywhere.

His limp body leaned onto that man,
a surge of consciousness awakened him.

Roger wanted to retaliate,
the man forced his head still.
The struggle ended,
Roger fell into unconsciousness once again.

--

A sound of slamming doors,
a starting drive.

Destination: Unknown.

plain hot

2009-05-29T00:45:00.000-07:00

I pulled the shirt over Angel's head
gently patting his torso.

It fitted perfectly.
I smiled.

--

Angel looked down at himself,
stretched his arm a little
(showing some of his armpit hair)

"Isnt this a little too small?"
(It looked perfect, to me)

He pulled the sleeves and tugged it,
which were nothing more than small flaps.

"You look really hot in it Angel!"
It showed off his muscular arms,
and his marble chest.

Angel gave me -that look-
"Really!"

I went to hug him,
"Oh..."

His arm went to pat my back,
"Alright."
He looked in the mirror
and flexed a little.

He smiled.

--

"Now for pants.."
I slipped it up his legs,
he buttoned up.

His butt looked so small
rubbed it a little.
Angel flushed red.

"You look really hot today,"
The outfit made him look like a little boy
but a really handsome one!

I got dressed quickly,
Angel held my hand.
Going out!

alone

2009-05-26T01:04:00.004-07:00

Facets Chapter 14

The boy cried
it wasnt helping.
The pain
just wont go away.

He wished that he was dead
no one is here to save him.
His lifeline
was forced away.

The boy looked,
its school.
How dreaded
its not even over yet.

It all will start again
the faces, the stares, the explanation.
He havnt recovered fully
and the troubles of the real world are back to get him.

The boy wished Roger was here,
or that it never ended.

adorable

2009-05-26T00:45:00.002-07:00

this lil poem is titled:
hangover chicken noodle soup.

my head started to spin
feelin a lil pukish.
"baby you okay?"

"not really"
i tumbled as i walked,
like a baby's first steps.

"sit down baby,
sorry about last night."
angel's face leaked guilt.

my bum hit when i sat,
i cringled.
"ouch!"

"sorry baby, no more games.
anything you wanna eat?"
angel smiled.

"chicken noodle soup!"
i sprang
and my bum hurt again.

"chicken noodle soup it is then."
angel gave that spot a rub,
i squimed a lil.

angel laughed
"you were good last night,
it will be a nice meal for you!"

kinky. drunk. hungry.

2009-05-24T09:52:00.000-07:00

got cheated into getting drunk,
kinda lost myself.
angel was well mischievous,
letting the "hungry tiger" out.

shant say too much,
prolly get you guys too hard.
when the hungry tiger is out,
you wont want to be around.

seems like angel enjoyed himself
and i just woke up to find myself in his arms.
till i saw the bottle of vodka in the kitchen.

the look in angel's eyes just make it all worthy.

licks.

2009-05-23T05:12:00.000-07:00

explanatory.

cuddly

2009-05-20T18:38:00.000-07:00

you make me so proud,
so proud of myself and of you.
it is the greatest joy of all,
you are the greatest joy of all.

it is the greatest gift of all,
you are the greatest gift of all.
to me, you are a miracle.

rain in a desert.
you brought life
to a withered me.

your love is the greatest blessing of all,
i wish i am the greatest blessing to you too.

sneaky

2009-05-12T02:00:00.000-07:00

Angel's still sleeping
its one of those days I wake up earlier than him.
He looks so innocent.
His breath light and snugging.

I pulled his singlet up,
drooled over those abs.
Rested my cheek against it,
it feels so nice.

Opps!
Angel's arm wrapped me,
I was caught!

He kissed me on the forehead,
and took off his singlet.

I got hard..
again.

fuck you ><

2009-05-10T04:03:00.000-07:00

playing around

2009-05-08T21:28:00.000-07:00

today was a great day.
spent the entire day at home with angel,
feel so close to him once again.

sat at the counter stool while watching him cook,
angel's so sexy when he's cooking.
in his pink apron and undies
(the one I got him for birthday!)

cannot help it but gave him a hug from behind,
he held my hands in place.

was well lazy the rest of the time,
playing around in bed :)

but i was a good boy,
i did the dishes!
got myself really wet while i was at it,
angel seems to be enjoying the show..

i am such a lucky boy!

rainy days together

2009-05-06T04:51:00.000-07:00

Your warm touch,
when we hold hands.
Playfulness when you
put your hand into my pocket.

Sharing the same scarf,
your scent intoxicating.

When it rains,
you always have an umbrella.
Or a jacket,
to shelter me from wetness.

I can rest on your shoulder,
in you lie my trust.

kiss

2009-04-28T12:19:00.000-07:00

a day at the beach

2009-04-27T02:35:00.000-07:00

look who's making me hard ><

chained

2009-04-26T14:33:00.000-07:00

cuddles

2009-04-24T17:09:00.000-07:00

your arms around me,
your chin resting on my head,
i like your cuddles.

kiss me angel

2009-04-20T01:18:00.000-07:00

sweet
as heaven,
as rose.

dressing up.

2009-04-13T02:02:00.000-07:00

Took some time off to be with Angel,
went shopping today!

Angel looks soo sexy in his leather vest,
shows of his arm muscles beautifully.
Feel so proud of him,
and ever appreciative for what he does for me.

Though strong, his touch ever so gentle.
You make me feel worthy of everything,
I want to be everything for you.

People always ask if you are my model,
but I am love it when I say: You are my boyfriend.

And thank you for loving me ever so much,
despite my imperfections and mistakes.

You are the best thing that has happened to me.

touchy!

2009-04-10T21:27:00.000-07:00

when big brother is sad

2009-04-08T21:29:00.000-07:00

when big brother is sad,
i can feel it too.
his blue eyes wet.

i look from the corner,
afraid to come close.
i didnt want to upset him,
just sat there and watched.

seeing him in pain
makes me want to cry too.
but i held my tears back,
"i got to be brave."

i want him to look back badly,
i want to see him smile.

~

time drifted, fast.
i almost forgot how to talk

big brother moved,
i broke from my stance.

he kissed my forehead,
i blushed.
he held my head in his hands

his blue eyes are so beautiful,
his smile to die for.

sleep tight

2009-04-07T14:05:00.000-07:00

forgive thyself

2009-04-05T02:06:00.000-07:00

its harder to forgive oneself,
then for others to forgive one.

wanted angel to forgive me soo badly,
tied myself to the bed.
wanted to show that i am his,
and only his.

i'd never want to be with another guy,
always true.

never want
another hand to touch me,
another tongue in my mouth.

been his slave for a day,
cos i know he wouldnt hurt me.

~

i find myself even more so,
locked in his heart.

be my master

2009-04-04T20:19:00.000-07:00

i can be your slave.

stay with me

2009-04-03T01:19:00.000-07:00

i dont want to go back to life without you,
i am sorry for neglecting you..

taking the things you do for granted.

i am sorry for letting work that over my life,
i didnt mean to do the things i did.

its not your fault for what you did either,
i hope that you can forgive me.

life without you,
is one without love.

intoxicating sweetness

2009-03-30T07:15:00.000-07:00

you make me feel strong,
you make me want to be strong..

in your strength,
i find mine.

forgiveness

2009-03-21T07:08:00.000-07:00

"Will God forgive me,
for what I have done?"

Angel just hugged me,
me leaning on his chest.
His deep breaths,
a soft puff at my ear.

He pressed me closer,
"He will know best,
but I love you no matter what happens."

His gentle kiss on my cheek.
The warmth from his body.

Maybe it wasn't something wrong afterall..

i broke a heart

2009-03-18T07:15:00.000-07:00

I used to wish that everyone liked me,
but not anymore
if the price was to break someone's heart.

Maybe I should have made it clear,
I already knew that you had something for me.
But I have to stay true
to someone who already has a place in my heart.

Will God forgive me for
what I have done today?

It was perhaps the most terrible thing
I've ever done.

nightmare

2009-03-17T18:45:00.000-07:00

The boy called out his name,
getting more tense with each scream.
Fists clenched,
breaking out in cold sweat.

He shook him,
"wake up wake up!"

Tears slipped off the edge of his eyelids,
two strings down his face.
His expression,
painful.

He kissed the boy.

It stopped.
His eyes open,
they watered like crystals.

"Don't cry. Its all a dream,"
He hugged the boy,
ensuring him then again.

The boy held tightly,
leaning his face against his chest.
Arms laced around his waist.

The boy closed his eyes again,
and drifted away in his gentle touch.

hot is the word

2009-03-14T06:35:00.000-07:00

sweetest little thing

2009-03-13T06:24:00.000-07:00

I look in your eyes and I see love.
Little being sitting on the bed,
silent gazing.

Your sweet smile when I kiss you.
Small boy holding his brother's hands,
eyes closed.

Curious..

~Angel

haircut

2009-03-05T02:30:00.000-08:00

Went for a haircut,
must say it was pretty scary for me.
There was hair all over the place when we were done.
Had my eyes closed throughout.

Angel was well supportive,
saying no matter what's the outcome,
it wouldn't bother him at all.

Now my hair is kinda spiky,
medium length.
Seems like Angel really likes it,
been talking about it forever.

:)

what i love in angel

2009-02-28T15:52:00.000-08:00

I love it when:

we have breakfast together every morning,
making toasts and waffles.
You never fail to start my day right,
even when my mood fails me.

we do the dishes together,
bubbles on your face.
You standing next to me,
in your brown apron.

we leave home together,
on the train.
You drop me off at work,
kissing me before you leave.

we think of each other,
while we are away.
You send me messages,
beeping on my little red phone.

we meet up after work/school,
you standing outside my studio.
Patiently standing there,
watching me when I'm on overtime.

we walk home,
holding hands.
You guide me when I am lost,
protect me when I am in danger.

we undress each other,
in the bedroom.
You make me feel safe,
cos you are here with me.

will you be there?

2009-02-23T19:38:00.000-08:00

Gave Angel a trove of undies for his birthday,
he's so elated!
Love the look in his eyes,
he tried them on immediately.

He's so cute!
What a child he is sometimes,
that puts a smile on my face.

Kissed his cheek,
he wrestled with me in bed.
Ran his hands on me,
pressed his lips on mine.

He said something very sweet,

"Now I have you with me all the time,
close to my heart, or my.."

Made me laugh,
you will always be there.

cutie

2009-02-21T19:43:00.000-08:00

dreamy

2009-02-21T19:30:00.000-08:00

Hold my hand,
kiss me if you will.

Walk with me,
follow me if you will.

Touch my face,
hug me if you will.

Run with me,
carry me if you will.

..

Play with me,
love me if you will.

the blond hottie

2009-02-16T01:14:00.001-08:00

Silly blond boy,
his chest against my back.
Arms wrapped around me,
his breath heavy and scented.

I thought I'd wake up earlier
than Angel for once.
Guess somethings just never change.

"Aren't you going to wish me
Happy Birthday?"

I kissed him,
"Happy Birthday."
His smile is priceless,
he held me closer.

"So how do you want
to celebrate?"

"Let's stay all day in bed,
we will have lots of fun."
He tucked me down
and licked my neck.

I laughed
but couldn't break free
from his hold.

I looked at his face from below
his hair free-falling
sweat dripped from his nose.
I felt hot inside.

I touched his crotch,
he's hard as ever.

"Nike,"
"Yes Angel?"

There was a pause.

"I want you to get off
inside me."

birthday boy

2009-02-13T17:05:00.000-08:00

Its a very special day tomorrow,
not only Valentine's but also
the day someone beautiful was born;

someone I love with all my heart,
someone I kiss with all my passion,
someone I trust with all my life.

Just wanna say,
you make me proud of being myself,
you make me feel worthy of love,
you make me live everyday like my last.

I Love You Angel!

match

2009-02-08T17:35:00.000-08:00

Angel invited me to play basketball
with his mates,
knew I really cannot play
so I offered to watch instead.

Was feeling really hot
and hard.
His friends were really hot!!
Though that my undies were going to burst.

It was as painful
as it was fun.
Sweaty boys really turn me on!!

When it was over,
Angel came to me and kissed me
in front of his friends.

I was kinda surprised by it,
but was glad that Angel
is so proud of me when he introduced
me to his friends.

Thats a side of Angel I never knew.

At the washroom,
Angel was well naughty.
Touched my crotch when we were walking there
and said out loud

"Nike! You're so hard."
I was so embarrassed
but luckily no one noticed.
I hope.

Went into the same cubicle
and he started rubbing my undies.
I told him to stop
but then he pushed himself on me
and continued.

I came in my undies..

It was so embarrassing!
Angel then apologised
and promised not to do it again.

The look on his face was so cute,
I kissed him.
He smiled.
He matched me.

doing fine

2009-02-02T04:03:00.000-08:00

Hi all readers,
Angel and I are doing fine.
No, we have not broken up
or anything matter of that sort.

Do continue to read this blog,
as I tell the story of
Lucas and Roger.
Hope that you will comment.

As much as it sounds cheesy,
celebrated my birthday in an
unorthodox manner
just three weeks ago.

And mummy came down
with my sis and her kids
for chinese new year
with me and Angel.

Things are in good shape now
and hope that life is going great
for the rest of you.
If you wish to contact me
just email me.

Love,
Nike and Angel

kiss me softly

2009-01-23T01:59:00.000-08:00

Hold me tight,
when you place your hands
on my waist
pressing my hip.

Come closer,
when you approach me
your scent
drowns my senses.

Look at me,
when you lock your eyes
on mine
calling my name.

Close your eyes
when you let
your mind see
feel my presence.

Kiss me softly
when your lips
on mine
stops my heart.

truth

2009-01-11T17:21:00.000-08:00

Taken from RealEuphoria

Facets Chapter 13

It was never deemed to happen,
it was suppose to work out,
they were meant to live happily ever after.

The boy felt outcast
he thought they would believe him
but the incident made it all worse.

He thought she would know
or at least acknowledge it;
but she'd rather change it
or live in denial otherwise.

He wanted to know what happened
but no one ever mentioned of it
or him.

Whether he is dead or alive
whether he has somewhere to go to or not;
no one cared
except him.

Roger taught him to love
but now, to hate.
To hate the things around him,
to hate the ideas that revolve him.

She said never
to mention Roger again.
As much as he shouldn't
he hated her too.

The boy looked at the note
the words he can already memorize
craved into his heart
down to the bone.

He know Roger's out there
somewhere.
He want to know what exactly happened
no one said anything.

But deep down inside,
he always knew the truth
just never believed it
like they do.

Promise

2008-12-21T23:28:00.000-08:00

Facets - Chapter 12

"Love does not consist of gazing at each other,

but in looking togetther in the same direction."

Antoine De Saint-Exupery

The boy wanted to give up.

Should there be a knife he would slash his throat with it,

should there be rope he would strangle himself with it,

should there be fire he would torch himself with it,
unable to be with the one he loved.

-- --

Two months ago..

"Roger, your name is?"

"Yes."

"Please stay away from Lucas
you well know of your condition."

"Yes."

There was sadness
in his eyes.
It watered
but he did not cry.

"I understand you don't
have family.
Here take this."

It was an envelope.

--

Roger looked at that sleeping face
for the last time.

For good.
He thought.

He pressed his well placed lips
on his forehead,
whispering:

"Take care my darling."

He forced the tears back
as he ran out the door.

Empty handed.

--

The boy could feel him
he was here.
But now,
where?

A note was left in his pocket.

"I love thee, I love but thee

With a love that shall not die
Till the sun grows cold,
And the stars grow old..."

Bayard Rustin

It is from Roger,
together with a bundle of cash.
The boy is confused
but he knows;

something is wrong.

Is it the end?

2008-12-10T17:29:00.000-08:00

Without you,
the bed is too big
a vast ocean.

Without you,
this house is too cold
everlasting winter.

Without you,
my heart is empty
a mere shell.

Without you,
my world knows no love
only hate.

Without you,
I am good as
dead.

transformation

2008-10-27T04:22:00.000-07:00

Went to give Angel a makeover yesterday
for Halloween preparation.
Dressing him up like
a desert fox (dessert fox!)

Dyed his chocolate hair blond
and eyebrows too.
His blues look seriously pretty:)

I am dressing up as a gray wolf
pup.

There's a party
and we are going to be a doggy couple.
So looking forward to it lots.

--

A little update on the previous post
well, the injury healed nicely.
And it doesn't hurt as bad now,
and Angel is so starved. (haha!)

Starting to get cranky sometimes,
its almost 3 weeks now.
I wouldn't survive it at all
if I were him. (I'm a horny boy)

He couldn't sleep
and was tossing around in bed
so was I.

He hugged me
pressing his lips on my neck
hands on my waist.
Rubbing his crotch
on my butt.

I could feel whats inside
his undies
it seems like its breaking free.
My boxers went to my knees.

He ran his hands on my tummy
stroking me.

I pounced onto him
striped his undies.

'Mouth?'

'Uh,uh.'
He shook his head
and eyed my butt.

Without warning
he flipped me around.
And pushed himself into me,
it hurt a little
but what came after was absolute delight.

He played with my thing
while enjoying himself.

I felt so full of him
then he exploded.

It shot again and again,
till the capacity of my insides
are filled.

His liquid is overflowing
I moaned.
But he said 'wow'.

Wow indeed.

I released shortly after
it felt good
too good.

Boys are so blessed
aren't we?

funny event

2008-10-08T05:39:00.001-07:00

Sorry for not posting lately, really busy with work and all. Oh yes! This happened the other day, it is kind of funny coming to think of it and I thought I'd share it with you guys!

Angel sat on the bed
he's just so amazingly cute in his undies,
almost all exposed
his milky skin and muscular chest.

I hopped on
the mattress jumped momentarily.
I crawled to the centre
and prepared to pounce on him.

I leaped.

Angel managed to catch me,
holding me by my armpits.
He kissed me
and I embraced him in favor.

I slept on his lap
between his crossed legs.
His hands ran into my hair
and stroked me.

I closed my eyes
concentrating on his massage,
rubbing my temples.

Unknown to me,
Angel unbuttoned his undies.
His cock landed on my face,
he pushed it into my mouth.

I sucked in return,
thinking it was his finger.

Then I realised it was something else.
Instinctively, I bit it.

Angel screamed "Nike!"
"Please, its my cock!!"
I opened my eyes,
and wiped my saliva.

His eyes were red and tearing,
holding on to his thing.
Its red on the tip,
a little blood wound.

"I am so sorry, Angel!"
I felt so apologetic,
I was so unromantic.

Something told me that
Angel is not crying cos of the pain.

I gave him a hug
he's very hot.
He said :

"How could you
not regconise your boyfriend's cock?
It hurts you know."

"I'm sorry,
didn't mean to do that.
I wasn't thinking."

After a good 5 minutes,
he let go and took a look at the wound.
There was a small mark there,
which looked kinda cute actually:)

"See, now he's damaged."

I laughed,
and replied:

"You can use mine till he's fixed."

><

Updates

2008-09-17T01:55:00.000-07:00

Hi!

Will be posting the next chapter of Facets soon, looking forward to your responses and keep those comments coming. Hope that you will enjoy it, one thing I can say is that things are taking a turn for Roger and Lucas.

Love

Freedom

2008-08-27T14:32:00.000-07:00

Many thanks to Ludicolo

Facets - Chapter 11

Roger brushed the boy's hair.
The angel of pure innocence, the hope.
He kissed his forehead,
grabbing his hand.

Now in fresh clothes, actually dressed,
Roger felt revived.
Free.
His new life owe to his saviors,
and the one he love.

--

Help came.
The dungeon was discovered, together with them,
several other boys and girls were saved.
Though some did not make it.
He woke up to find himself back in the world,
where people exists not as monsters,
but humans.

The police came to get information,
but getting those beasts captured was not his priority.
Saving Lucas is,
but not within his control.

In silence, he prayed for a miracle.

--

The boy opened his eyes and saw his loved one on his knees.
He looked ever more beautiful,
his hair running to his shoulder,
his skin a pale marble.

The boy reached to touch Roger's face,
he looked up, eyes watery.
He immediately swung his arms around him,
the boy was glad to receive his hug.

He could feel warm liquid wet his shirt,
he patted the back of Roger's head gently, brushing it.

"Just let me kiss you."
Roger turned his head,
the boy licked his lips and pressed his to his.
Heat rush up his face.

He enjoyed it to the millisecond.
Someone knocked on the door,
twist.
The face was all too familiar.

Mom.

--

Roger could interpret his face,
there was shock, but much more of happiness.
He stood up and walked away from the bed,
she walked forward.

He wanted to leave them to their happy reunion,
and wondered on his..
The thing is, he's all alone,
no family nor friends.

He is an island.
Drifting away from humanity.
Locked out of the light.

"Don't leave."
He turned, and faked a smile.
Lucas stretched out his hands,
Roger felt confused.

--

"Mom, this is Roger.."

Isolation

2008-08-26T03:47:00.000-07:00

Many thanks to CrystalDragon

Facets - Chapter 10

Four nights passed.
Not a movement, nor sound.
Their fate seeming hanging from a thread.

For which the demons gone,
but they are still trapped in hell.

The pain was beyond excruciating,
making every second seem longer.
Without food and drinking from a dripping tap,
they were on the last leg of their journey.

Roger crawled back to Lucas,
who was burning in the head.
Yet bound and immovable.

He positioned his lips on his
before releasing water into his mouth.
"Drink it Lucas, hang in there."
Their bare skin touched the concrete ground.

Roger hugged him,
thawing his partner.
His soft limbs are now stiff and cold.
He whispered beneath his breath,

"Lucas, don't fall asleep.
I am here with you.
Tell me that you love me."

--

The boy heard Roger
but was too weak to respond.
Roger's hands were around his chest,
he turned his head and kissed his arm.

--

Roger felt it,
a mere brush.
He was glad,
and continued,

"Hey, help is coming.
And when we are out of here.
I have nowhere to go,
may I stay with you?"

--

The boy was touched,
Roger's voice though shaking,
was sweet as honey.
He wanted to look at him again,
before he wonders off.

With his remaining energy,
the boy held Roger's hand.
His world went blank.

--

Lucas's weak hold lasted for a long time
but thereafter,
he did not respond to Roger
His time is almost out.

His eyelids were heavy,
then his world went blank.

I'm still alive!!

2008-08-26T02:41:00.001-07:00

Thought that I need to update, some readers are mailing me and asking if I am fine. Yes! I am still alive, do not worry! Angel and I are doing great, just really busy with work and play.

And I will be posting the next two chapters of Facets soon so please comment!! It's gonna be really nice, and I hope you enjoy reading it. I am falling in love with Roger and Lucas already:) Things are going to be really exciting, and pretty tragic in the subsequent chapters. That's all I can say for now.

Love,
Nike

Flown

2008-08-06T02:24:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, I am now in Singapore. Sorry for the lack of updates lately, I am fine and everything is going well. Will be here for a week or so. Love y'all!

Wounds

2008-07-15T01:52:00.000-07:00

Taken from Milkboy

Facets - Chapter 9

It was over.
All over.

They left, leaving nothing but scars and blood.
Lucas seemed unconscious, his nose, lips and anus bleeding.
His lungs seemed dead, he was barely breathing.

Roger approached sweeping his body using his arms, his legs were numb.
Is he dead?
His heart skipped a beat as he moved himself closer, quickening his movement.
He drew his arms around Lucas, and looked at his face.

Blood dripped from his nose and lips bitten.
Roger placed his lips on his,
at least he is still breathing.

But his blood runs cold,
and skin pale as paper.
Purple veins ran below the icy surface,
black bubbles of clot blood appeared.

Roger wrapped him under his arm,
warming him with his body temperature.
Tears rolled down as he did so.

--

The boy saw clouds, then felt the sun.
He opened his eyes and smiled.

--

Lucas is awake!

Roger rejoiced in his heart,
hugging him tighter this time.
Lucas held on to him weakly
and his smile was faint.
But ever so beautiful.

Roger wiped his tears,
looking into his eyes again.
His lips curled at its ends,
pure happiness blanketed him.

--

The boy kissed Roger,
pushing his head forward.
In their mouths,
exchanging licks.

His wounds deep.
His scars stain.
His pain indescribable.

His love healing.

Gorgeous!

2008-07-01T02:36:00.001-07:00

Way cute!! Love his body and cute face:)

Hard on

2008-07-01T02:33:00.000-07:00

Manga

2008-07-01T02:31:00.000-07:00

Really hope to do this with Angel one day! Way cute!!!

Moving in

2008-06-15T20:01:00.000-07:00

Hi!

Great News guys!! Angel and I are moving into our own apartment (it was a gift from Angel). Played around with him and tried something new:)

- cheeky smile -

Tell you guys about it later:)

Stalker

2008-06-11T19:59:00.000-07:00

I went shopping alone today and really did not expect something like this to happen, it really spooked me out! I took a week off to relax and to kill time while Angel is still at school, I headed for downtown.

It is not as crowded as usual and just the way I like it, I just wore a furry hooded jacket (with nothing inside) and a pair of jeans. Bought some stuff and had lunch and that's when it all happened. I was eating at this cafe and got a table (with two chairs) by the window so I can look out.

Then this guy came and asked if he could share my table, he seemed quite okay and the cafe is rather crowded anyway so I said yes. At first I didn't realise anything but then I found him looking at me in that way (like a molester/rapist would in the movies). I was pretty freaked out and quickly finished my scones and took away my coffee. I thought it was the last of it.

I tried to clear thoughts of what happened and went to the bookstore that Angel and I frequent. I headed for my favourite section, the CDs which are located in the far end. There were shelves and shelves of books and I didn't know that he was following me!! Upon realisation, I quickly left through the back exit. My heart was already pumping at a super fast rate and I was panting.

I was really panicky and really scared. I mean, I have never experienced being followed like that, it was horrifying! I went to the toilet before wanting to board the train home. I thought I'd lost him but no. The toilet is empty. He came from behind and grabbed me tight. I was so shocked I could not move, I felt like a rag doll being played around with.

He pushed me to the wall (he is very strong) and started to unzip my jacket, running his hands on my bare skin. My limbs failed me at such a crucial time, my mind was blank, my throat seems as though it was gagged. I couldn't do anything. He was touching me!!

Just then, a train conducter came in and saw what happened. Although the stalker got away, he was there to witness the happening. I quickly zipped up the jacket and put on the hood. I was literally hugging myself, I felt so flithy. I was given a hot drink at the office and then the police came. It took about an hour before everything was settled.

I phoned Angel to pick me up, I was too scared to leave an inch away from the office. Then Angel came and I started crying (again). I am such a crybaby. He draped another jacket over my shoulder and brought me home, comforting me throughout the trip back. Angel again and again ensured that he would be with me. I'd wonder how I would be without him.

I love you, Angel.

Way cute!!!

2008-06-10T19:07:00.000-07:00

OMG!! Their butts are so cute:)

Touchy

2008-06-10T17:45:00.000-07:00

"Can one desire too much of a good thing?"

As you like it (Act IV, Scene I)

Angel reached his hand into my shirt, rubbing my stomach.

I enjoyed it when Angel plays around,

his perfect smile

melts me like butter left in the sun.

His saphire eyes,

attracts me like the unlike poles of two magnets.

I leaned towards his chest, it was hard as if carved out of marble.

Angel grinned, he looks hungry despite the heavy dinner,

his teeth are ivory white.

He reached for my neck, nibbling it.

I held myself to him, arms wrapped tight.

"My love's more richer than my tongue."

King Lear (Act I, Scene I)

His hands were around my waist, moving my shirt up.

He pressed his body on my skin,

I stretched my arms and the shirt went off.

He kissed me hard, pulling my face to his.

I grabbed the back of his shirt, wanting to yank it out.

He stopped me, took hold of my hand.

"I am not getting naked before you do"

I moved in protest, but Angel is far stronger than I am.

He smiled again, I could feel my hands getting weak.

I submitted,

his hands moved down, caressing my waist.

They digged into my undies, touching my butt slightly, warm.

They stretched the waistband before pulling it away.

"Good boy,"

Angel patted my head and stroked my hair.

He kissed me and laced his arms around me;

this time it was soft, almost cushion-like.

I curled up like a shrimp,

and in his protective shell,

I lay.

He sings too!!

2008-06-08T20:41:00.001-07:00

Absolute Cuties!

2008-06-08T19:58:00.000-07:00

Aren't they just so good to look at? Those cute eyes:)

Downcast

2008-05-29T03:36:00.000-07:00

Facets - Chapter 8

It was too soon to be happy,

for which their joys are killed.

The beasts are back...

with each step the bells ring,

the walls shake

and their breath with the stench of death.

Roger was taken away, upon discovery of their affection.

Shackled to a wall, he was spread eagle.

Painful stripes of crimson striked his skin;

purple fountains explode with every contact with the whip

leaking the fluid of life in rivelets.

The boy watched, the sight just too painful for his eyes to see. Warmth secuded his eyes, tears fell like the monsoon rain. He felt so helpless to the situation, could he do nothing to stop them?

Roger closed his eyes, the stinging torture hit him again. He bit his lips, they were already bleeding.

"It is all going to be over soon,"

he convinced himself, God will take his life and dull the pain to which remind him he is alive. He would sleep for eternity in the lap of his mother. Once again, reborn.

The boy could watch no longer,

his cries,

the slashing of the air,

the rhymtic strikes. The pain he felt inside was killing him.

"No! Please stop, use me instead..."

The boy exploded in his cries.

They stopped, as if waiting for him to say that.

"Take the young one away."

Two pairs of strong arms scooped him and dragged the boy like a sack of potatoes. They tied his shackles to the ceiling, suspending him from the floor. Legs dangling down from above. The boy's heart beat accelerated so much so one can dance to it.

A needle was inserted into his arm following the entry of a warm liquid. A surge of energy, passion, esctasy ran in his veins. The boy found himself in a light fluffiness, as if in seventh heaven.

Rough hands ran through his body, caressing every part of it. The boy can no longer feel any touch, as if his soul already left this empty shell that wich is his body. He felt so free.

The boy felt a sharp pain at his anus, it was slitting, a cold metalic surface prying it open. He wanted to scream, but his dulled senses muted him. Slowing, he drifted away...

Roger heard his cries.

He did not want to imagine what they would do to him.

Lucas did nothing to deserve that, despite his sexual orrientation. No one deserves this.

He prayed that they would be free... that they would be saved.

Change Me

2008-05-26T01:35:00.000-07:00

Facets - Chapter 7

"There is no evil angel but Love."

WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE, Love's Labour's Lost

The boy threw his arms around Roger and wept. He couldn't stop apologising, for what he had done, for things beyond his control, for everything.

Roger silently lended his shoulder. It was all to human for him.

Who is this person? He felt coldness in his heart, but now, warmth.

An ember torching bright from within the boy, for which kindered one from him. For once in a long time, Roger was alive.

It was sin.

A most probable guilt he felt. The boy shouldn't have done what he did.

The act was too wrong, too unclean, too evil.

But no, would the heavens create him?

Or was it a cruel mistake of an incident.

Was he a mistake?

Roger laced his arms around the male, feeling that warmth from his body, to which his frosty touch would thaw.

His skin was smooth, which Roger ran his fingers to. His hands grasped the boy's waist and allowed him to come closer. They were leaning on each other.

Roger enjoyed that moment. He wished it would last forever..

The boy realised that Roger was hugging him!

He didn't mind the fact that he was different.

For which it was nothing more than being human.

For once in a long time, the boy smiled.

He moved his head closer to Roger's, their noses brushing each other gently. And their eyes were on the other. Roger's hands rested behind his head, pushing it closer, until their lips touched.

Infatuation

2008-05-23T04:09:00.000-07:00

Guess everyone goes through this:

when you think that you fell in love the moment you looked at him,

when you think that you need him
when you think that you can't live without him,

then you realised that he doesn't even know you..

It hurts, I know how it feels. The very most hurtful is the silence, locking it away from anyone and everyone. We want advice, and also privacy, which is so hard to find at the same time.

That is infatuation,

a foolish, all-absorbing passion

that takes over your conscious,

that eats up your soul,

that steals your attention;

a sharp and painful memory

that hijacks your mind,

that quenches its thirst on tears,

that robs your time;

a blessing so indulging

yet so harsh in proof,

that drives motivation

and fuels depression.

Back!

2008-05-16T00:23:00.000-07:00

Hi guys!

I am back in Paris!! Love so much to be home and to be with my angel. Indeed, home is where the heart is. Sorry for not posting lately cos I am been pretty busy getting all my work done.

Love y'all!

Rain

2008-05-07T00:44:00.000-07:00

Rain - Rain is coming.

Departure

2008-04-27T23:09:00.000-07:00

"Good-night, good-night! Parting is such sweet sorrow
That I shall say good-night till it be morrow."

Juliet (Act II Scene II)

Saying goodbye is such a hard thing to do, but Angel has to leave

It was the first time, but I hope its the last time too.

That I have to let Angel leave me

or is that selfish desire

to keep him by my side?

Time passes slowly

for those who wait.

But it would be worthy of my patience.

Chocolate Chip Cookies

2008-04-25T00:18:00.000-07:00

Angel has arrived and is now staying with me in my small service apartment.

It seems like it's the first time I fetch him from the airport.

In fact it is the first time.. and I am appreciative for the times he was there. I now know how it felt like when he was waiting for me.

How anxious and nerve-wrecking it was

wishing that everything is fine and that he would arrive safely.

And seeing him walk through those gates.. I just ran over to hug him, he gave me a kiss and held my hand.

And he is smiling all the time.

Angel was so excited when we reached my apartment

and so boyish.. I love him so much!

The way he gave me those cute puppy eyes when I said I am going off to work.. I hurts me that I have to leave him. I promised him that I will come back to see him as soon as possible.

And it was only during at noon that I realised Angel slipped in a box of cookies into my bag. It was in a small air-tight box and the bite-sized cookies had loads of bittersweet chocolate bits in it.

I just melted and called him to tell him how much I loved him.

I was so touched, tears almost fell..

Perhaps in life, it is the littlest things that make a difference.

Taking notice of the likings of your loved ones,

and taking effort to make them happy.

At least we have a lifetime to show them

how much they matter..

that they are important..

that you LOVE them.

Eyes

2008-04-22T03:50:00.000-07:00

Facets - Chapter 6

The boy seem, for some unknown reasons, nervous. Roger looked, the boy had beautiful eyes, brown and earthy, warm and fuzzy, despite his naked shivering body. Perhaps, it's the unfamiliarity, or the cold. But Roger could not read his mind, what is he thinking?

The boy gave him a few glances before looking away, Roger don't understand why. Did something happen? It was the first time he knew of the existance of another boy in the compound, at least there's someone to share his pain. Despite its helplessness...

Roger broke the silence and spoke of the reason of his appearance in this dungeon. The boy seem to just listen quitely, curling up with his legs and looking down.

Perhaps he can look into the floor and see the punishment of hell.

Towards the end, the boy's eyes started to tear and droplets of dew rolled down his cheeks, leaving a watery trail. At least he has a heart,

Sympathy.

Roger felt a certain warmth in his heart. He was actually feeling closer to this stranger, it's as if they already met or a bond had been made to tie them together. It seemed natural.

Just then, a tingling sensation overwhelmed him, at his lips.

Roger's thoughts were broken by a certain act of affection. He looked,

He is kissing him!

Roger felt lost, a wave of emotions hit him like a tsunami.

He then knew.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

2008-04-22T03:45:00.000-07:00

Hi guys!

I have some great news...

ANGEL'S COMING TO SEE ME!!!

I am so glad, I miss him so much and just can't wait to be with him again. I am so excited, but I will need to wait till Wednesday... Its just a short time away... He will be here till Sunday night before going back.

I am already thinking of things to do with him

and I just love him so much!!

Kim Jeong Hoon

2008-04-17T01:23:00.001-07:00

Embarrassment

2008-04-17T01:14:00.000-07:00

I got myself so red this morning! A boy like who looks like the one above was sitting beside me on the train and I got all excited and was blushing.

My face was so red!! He's so gorgeous and I took a glance that him occasionally but can't help feeling attracted. He must have realised it and was smiling so beamingly. He laughed a little to himself and that's so cute!!

What have I done? Gosh, my day really started a little hot..

Sensitivity

2008-04-17T01:11:00.000-07:00

I did this test and here's the results:

Your Sensitivity Score: 85%

You are an extremely sensitive person. You notice everything.

You've probably been called overly sensitive before, and it's partially true.

Highly sensitive people tend to be highly intelligent. And you just can't turn off that part of you.

Are You Extremely Sensitive?

I didn't realise that I was THIS sensitive, anyway perhaps it's a gift to be always fully aware of everything all the time. And it is so true that cos my mum and Angel say that I am too sensitive...